No.1 : Things to be happy about.

*My comfy bed.
*Smiling and seeing others smile.
*Making people laugh.
*Music.
*Scented candles.
*Colours.
*My pets.
*Ukuleles.
*The sun.
*The snow.
*Hot chocolate.
*Teddy bears.
*Dreadlocks.
*Beards.
*Lipstick.
*Dove - hand wash.
*Photographs.
*Selfies.
*Showers.
*Freshly made beds.
*Slippers.
*Mittens.

Smile :)
  L
xxx

You're here for a reason. Believe it, Find that reason.

So, whether you believe this or not, In my eyes it is true.
You are here, on this earth, and you have been granted this thing we call life.
Yes, Okay, I will gladly admit it can be so, so difficult sometimes, and we all struggle to find hope in those times of darkness.
But let me tell you now, there is light in every dark situation. You just have to find it. No one else can do it for you. You have to learn to be strong and just hold on to get through it. I mean, the only way through it is to get through it. Simple as really.

It's so hard to be positive, I know.
But what is the point in being down and negative?
You may as well get up and get through it. Enjoy what you have.

I see things in a very different way after the death of my step dad and my best friend Lucy.
I make the most of what I have and I simply look at the situations I face and realise it will get better. But for things to get better, you have to want them to get better and only YOU have the power to do that!

No matter what situation you face or how hard it is, there is a way out of it. There is ALWAYS a way through it. So get up and find that way.
 Ask your friends and family to help you find it. And once you find it, you can take those steps towards happiness. Things will start looking up. And if you become low and down again, get back up and fight back! You are strong and you can do it.
To everyone of you beautiful people reading this. I believe in every single one of you.
Please, for me, do not take the easy way out of things. Get up and fight your problems. Everything is going to be okay. Start believing that please.

SMILE :)

L
xxx

Inspirations. Simple as that really!

So, we all have our inspirations in life.
A lot of my Inspirations have come from films or series I have watched, or bands that I listen to.
It's good having inspirations. It personally makes me really happy.
Everyday I will listen to one of my favourite bands, or I will watch one of my favourite TV shows, and just seeing the people on it almost gives me hope and something to aspire to! - As silly as that may sound.

I have recently started watching The Mindy Project! starring Mindy Kaling.
I loved Mindy anyway before watching this, as I own her book 'Is everyone hanging out without me (And other concerns)'. Which is just an amazing read.
I must say, she certainly is one of my biggest role models in life. She has a lovely personality, she is bubbly and funny and so, so talented! She isn't afraid to be herself and she promotes the fact that everyone is beautiful the way they are, and no one should want to change themselves just to please others or the media.
She shows that being curvy is a beautiful thing. I must say, she pulls off everything she wears and I wish I could do that! She is just overall a wonderful person.

This then brings me onto another strong female role model in my life.
Zooey Deschanel!
She is actually good friends with Mindy and I discovered Mindy through a site called HelloGiggles which is run by Zooey and two of her friends - Amazing website, I must say!
Zooey is the main character of one of my other favourite programmes, New Girl; Whenever I am down, this is one of my go to things.
Zooey, alike Mindy is a lovely, bubbly and funny person, and again so talented. She has such a positive outlook that I have taken on myself.

So, just to keep it short and simple, I will leave it at these two strong and beautiful women.
The point of this is for you to see that It's fine to have inspirations.
Find them and aspire to be like them if that's what makes you happy.
Because you all know that being happy is a very important thing to do.
So go now! And be HAPPY!!

Smile :)
  L
xxx

Today, I will be someone else my friend!

So yes, a very weird title on this blog!

It was actually inspired by my friend Ellen.
This morning Ellen walked into the classroom which our Music Industry was being held in.
I greeted her and said how lovely her hair looked, as I haven't yet seen it tied back since she got her gorgeous bangs (Full fringe) put in.
She replied to me with that look. You know the one that your friend gives you when you compliment them and they just look as if to say "Ha, funny. No" - Yes that look!
She then followed this look with "Today I'm Dean Winchester.I'm not feeling like being myself so I thought I would be someone else".
For some reason I was shocked and so amazed by what she said! Hence the reason why you are reading this post!

I mean. It makes so much sense!
It's just like when you are a beginner performer, you like to 'be' someone else whilst performing so that you can be more confident. My other best friend Emma told me a similar story about when she goes onto stage, as she is an actress. Her teacher once told her that someone they knew pretended on stage that they were 'Beyonce' so that they could hide all the nervousness and rock their performance.
The thing is, I guess I love that we have that control. It's truly incredible that when we are feeling down in the dumps and really self conscious or we lack confidence, we can put our worries aside by being someone else for the time being.

I had my first performance the other day with my band and I decided to be someone else on stage. I decided to think and act as if I were 'Hayley Williams' (Vocalist of the band Paramore). She is one of my inspirations along with many more, but today I felt the need to put my nervous state into a new state of mind.

I guess these big stars that we see in our favourite movies or favourite bands have their own way of showing confidence. Maybe they put themselves into their role models shoes when they aren't feeling good. Maybe that's why they always seem great to us.
Maybe you should give it a go when you aren't feeling up for the day being nervous and anxious. Put yourself into someone else's shoes and see how it is; There's no harm in trying, Ay! and if it works just remember you have the power to be someone else whenever you need to be, and eventually I guess you will just gradually become confident with being yourself and that shield you wore from being another person will actually just become a permanent part of you.

Smile :)
  L
xxx

Being a teen is hard work!

Ahh..Teenage years. Just not a great time for me I guess.
I mean, I'm 16 now, so I haven't yet escaped them, but Secondary (High) School was just, the worst time I have ever experienced.
People in general, being social, bullies, pressure, work, the In- crowd, fitting in, fashion & Style, weight, appearance, knowledge and all that teenage stuff!

I've always been one of those kids who get along better with older people. For instance, my brothers are both older me. One of them is 11 years older and the other is 13 years older than I am. So when I was younger and I didn't exactly gel with a lot of people my own age, I would see and spend time with my brothers and their friends doing things a young girl wouldn't normally participate in.

 I listened to all kinds of music (most likely where my love of music came from), I witnessed older people drinking, I played quiz games way out of my knowledge zone, being so young and most important of all, I, along with my brothers had to look after my Mum.
 Growing up, I watched my Mum go through loads of problems with health; every few months there would be the odd trip to hospitals. I guess this matured me, being the reason why I don't fit into the average teenagers routine, because I'm not exactly a teen in my mind and my level of maturity seems higher than others.

I was always the geeky and nerdy one, who wasn't attractive.
I was the goody two shoes, who got high grades.
I was the one who was targeted when someone wanted to tease or bully.
I was the one who was constantly laughed at because of the way I looked.
I was the small, self conscious one.
And last but not least, because of all of these things - I was the one who was chased out of school!

Let me just tell you that being the geeky and nerdy one isn't a bad thing.
It's better to be the nice one, who achieves high grades, than be a bully who doesn't care about grades.
Be yourself and don't let anyone change you!

Geeks and Nerds rule!
Embrace it.

Smile :)
   L
 xxx

Let's party!..Or maybe not?

So, I have been thinking about a past experience I had had at a party I attended a year or so ago.
It was basically when I was pulled out of mainstream education and became home educated.
Of course, the amount of friends I had was minimal, and the ones I did have just felt sorry for me.
So there came a time when I asked my friends to stay round; one was busy and the other two were going to the same party, so little old me was left alone. Thankfully my friend decided to ask me to go with her to this 16th Birthday party of a girl from my old school. Me being..clever, I said yes! (Big mistake). I thought 'Why not?'. I didn't want to, but I felt left out and didn't want to be the 'boring' one. I felt constantly looked down on anyway, so I wanted to prove a point that I could do teenage things.
 I assumed I was like the other teens and could have a normal time.
In the back of my mind, I knew I wasn't like them all and I knew a party was not going to be easy for me to handle. Especially a party full of 15 and 16 year olds!

Before the party I could not decide what to wear.
I'm a small, quirky, nerdy and not exactly thin girl, with not a lot of self confidence at all.
So finding an outfit to wear that suits this particular occasion was difficult.
I tried on so many cute dresses I had, but nope, they wouldn't be right.
I tried on my friends tight fitted dresses and just looked like a lumpy mess!
So I ended up wearing a green and white polka dotted crop top with a black high waisted skirt.
Now don't get me wrong, Polka dots look cute on me; I love them! But I guess cute wasn't right for the occasion.
The crop top..I didn't exactly wear it as a crop top, I pulled the skirt up so that none of my tummy was on show and I didn't wear a lot of make up, just because It's not something that appealed to me. My hair was down, orange and black and was held back with a cute bow head band.

So there above is the night of the party, showing my outfit. Of course minus the fluffy house slippers!
But yes, my two other friends wore tight and girly clothes which appealed to the boys; I guess I must have cramped their style a bit.
Their was everyone at the party wearing tight fitted dresses with clutch purses, drinking alcohol, and then there was me, looking quirky and polka dotted, with a bow head band, a brown bohemian side bag and drinking water.
I guess I was and still am so so different to the average teenager.

Anyway, enough rambling on.
The party was..horrid.
I mean, to me it was.
To my friends it was a blast. Dancing around teenage boys with their mainstream hair and style.
Eek..I feel ill thinking about it all again!
I was just so out of my comfort zone. A dance floor full of teens dancing almost seductively, and there is me completely frozen with fear (When I say frozen, I mean I actually couldn't move I was that scared).
And this is why I don't do parties like this.
I mean a family party is not too bad, but a popular person from schools party - not so good!

One memory from this party I will never forget was when I first walked in behind my friends and everyone turned to look. They looked back after a glance apart from the table sitting closest to the door. Which had someone on it who I had been friends with previously in infant school. He wasn't nice to me since he became cool. He just looked at me, laughed and turned to say something to his friend who also laughed. So yes, nothing like feeling paranoid in an environment you hate anyway!
I was just happy when I got home and I could put back on those purple slippers of mine and forget everything that had happened by watching TV and sipping on a hot chocolate.

I just thought I would share this with you all.
I haven't attended a party like that since then, which I'm happy about.

So yes! How do you guys find parties?
It would be interesting to hear some different comments with stories of your experiences.
I'm up for reading them!

Smile :)
  L
xxx