My quirks and flaws :)

So my beautiful friends, we all have our Flaws and Quirks... Why not embrace them!
I had an idea a few weeks ago to make a list of these things to try and be proud of them, why should we be ashamed. These are the wonderful things that make us so different and unique. Go ahead, make a list and be proud of it!

Here, I am letting go and sharing mine with you, let's be quirky and flawed together!

*I'm so small!
*I'm weirdly proportioned.
*My shoulders are quite big for such a small person.
*I have a podgy belly.
*I make wishes when I pull an eye lash out.
*I mess with my hair a lot.
*I have extreme anxiety which makes me overthink and over analyse everything.
*I have urges and tics.
*I'm not conventionally beautiful.
*My eyes are unique and grey!
*I talk a lot...(A lot)
*I say the weirdest things.
*I worry too much.
*Some people say I'm too kind.
*I love to buy people presents!
*I have a lot of energy.
*My fashion sense makes no sense!
*I'm always changing my hair.
*I believe cheese can play a part in bad dreams...
*I have stretch marks.
*I eat soup a lot. Probably too much.
*I love wearing Toe socks (Everyone finds that freaky).
*I have a condition where my hands get really cold so i wear gloves a lot!
*I have really small wrists.
*I'm quite physically weak.
*I really love hugs with certain people.
*I always imagine cute stories about my dream job or love life because it makes me happy.
*Pictures of animals make me so happy to the point where I get tears in my eyes.
*I really love making Cakes.
*Lipstick is an important part of my life.
*I walk really fast.
*I laugh a lot and very easily.
*The smell of Tea tree makes me very happy.
*Sometimes my sentences don't make sense.
*I like to sit or lie on the floor.

And many more, trust me.
Go ahead. Make your list!

Smile :)
  L
xxx

Pampering is important :)

So we all know how it feels to be a bit run down right?
Feeling a bit icky, spotty, or even feeling bad about your hair?

Well every now and then we all deserve some pampering.
Go out, buy a nice face mask and hair mask or even make your own!

Then apply these things (Maybe even slices of cucumber for those beautiful eyes) Why not go full whack!?
After applying, just sit back and completely relax. Listen to your favourite music, read a good book, watch something happy or even just enjoy your surroundings whilst drinking your favourite drink and eating some lovely food.
Why not even grab a big tub, fill it with hot water and some lovely relaxing body wash and soak those tired feet in it. I must say, nothing beats these moments of pure relaxation
If you have a bath (Sadly I don't) fill it with the nicest bath salts and top it off with a bath bomb and bubbles and enjoy your favourite beverage there too..
This is exactly what we need sometimes, so do not be afraid to do this. I can guarantee you will feel a little better afterwards. Go on, try it. You deserve some you time.

Smile :)
  L
xxx

No. 2 : Shortest post.

Remember that you need to relax and have "You time" every so often.
You are doing your best.
Stop rushing. Take things slowly and steadily.
Focus on Today for now. Worry about tomorrow when it comes.

Smile :)
  L
xxx

The floor is my best friend...

I started watching a program called "The Mindy Project" a few months back.
It became my new source of happiness, of course along with "New Girl".
Mindy Lahiri and Jessica Day are just two of the most lovely and quirky characters I have come across and I certainly am inspired by their beautiful yet realistic personalities.

Anyway, to my main point!
In "The Mindy Project" the main character often appears on her office floor, which indicates that she is feeling down or sad, or that something is wrong.
Now, yes, It may come across as completely and utterly weird and crazy, but I thought I would take some advice from her and try it out myself.
You know, I'm glad I did so.
I now lie or sit on the floor when I feel anxious, sad, frustrated or just not in a very good state.

My explanation as to why this helps me is that it makes me feel grounded and balanced.
It makes it easier to feel in one piece as apposed to feeling as if I am in lots of broken pieces.
We need balance in everything in order to think properly, and I suppose we have to have a neutral state of mind to think perfectly clearly.

I find that people often make decisions when they are at the peek of an emotion and it then turns out to be the wrong decision, or the person highly regrets it when they are feeling neutral again.
So this is why you need to find your neutral emotion and then come to decisions. Trust me, It all makes sense.

A perfect example is my wonderful Mother.
She went through a difficult break up with her husband, who was my step father.
Due to all of the high emotions she was feeling, such as anger, betrayal and sadness, she actually reached a point where she threw her wedding and engagement ring away.
 Recently we had a conversation about making decisions at the right time and this popped up.
We spoke a lot about it and she explained how sad it makes her feel that she no longer has those rings to remember the marriage during it's good times, and that the only thing left is the photographs.
 Unfortunately the man she was married to passed away in 2007 and this is why she is so regretful about throwing the rings away
 After the break up, they became very good friends and were contemplating on getting back together but then he passed away; This of course made her realize why it is important to cherish moments of happiness and keep anything you can to remember them.

Since we chatted and brought up decision making whilst high on emotions, she has changed the way she see's things and has said a number of times to friends and family about it.
I feel flattered that she has taken my word and has put it into her own life to help herself and others around her.

We all make decisions at times when we are vulnerable and aren't thinking straight. It isn't a crime, and you aren't wrong or at all bad for doing this.Just remember the importance of happiness and think about the decisions you make and when is the best time for them to be made. If you're feeling too high on emotion have a little lie or a sit down on the floor, balance yourself. It works!


Smile :)
   L
 xxx

Today, I will be someone else my friend!

So yes, a very weird title on this blog!

It was actually inspired by my friend Ellen.
This morning Ellen walked into the classroom which our Music Industry was being held in.
I greeted her and said how lovely her hair looked, as I haven't yet seen it tied back since she got her gorgeous bangs (Full fringe) put in.
She replied to me with that look. You know the one that your friend gives you when you compliment them and they just look as if to say "Ha, funny. No" - Yes that look!
She then followed this look with "Today I'm Dean Winchester.I'm not feeling like being myself so I thought I would be someone else".
For some reason I was shocked and so amazed by what she said! Hence the reason why you are reading this post!

I mean. It makes so much sense!
It's just like when you are a beginner performer, you like to 'be' someone else whilst performing so that you can be more confident. My other best friend Emma told me a similar story about when she goes onto stage, as she is an actress. Her teacher once told her that someone they knew pretended on stage that they were 'Beyonce' so that they could hide all the nervousness and rock their performance.
The thing is, I guess I love that we have that control. It's truly incredible that when we are feeling down in the dumps and really self conscious or we lack confidence, we can put our worries aside by being someone else for the time being.

I had my first performance the other day with my band and I decided to be someone else on stage. I decided to think and act as if I were 'Hayley Williams' (Vocalist of the band Paramore). She is one of my inspirations along with many more, but today I felt the need to put my nervous state into a new state of mind.

I guess these big stars that we see in our favourite movies or favourite bands have their own way of showing confidence. Maybe they put themselves into their role models shoes when they aren't feeling good. Maybe that's why they always seem great to us.
Maybe you should give it a go when you aren't feeling up for the day being nervous and anxious. Put yourself into someone else's shoes and see how it is; There's no harm in trying, Ay! and if it works just remember you have the power to be someone else whenever you need to be, and eventually I guess you will just gradually become confident with being yourself and that shield you wore from being another person will actually just become a permanent part of you.

Smile :)
  L
xxx

Let's party!..Or maybe not?

So, I have been thinking about a past experience I had had at a party I attended a year or so ago.
It was basically when I was pulled out of mainstream education and became home educated.
Of course, the amount of friends I had was minimal, and the ones I did have just felt sorry for me.
So there came a time when I asked my friends to stay round; one was busy and the other two were going to the same party, so little old me was left alone. Thankfully my friend decided to ask me to go with her to this 16th Birthday party of a girl from my old school. Me being..clever, I said yes! (Big mistake). I thought 'Why not?'. I didn't want to, but I felt left out and didn't want to be the 'boring' one. I felt constantly looked down on anyway, so I wanted to prove a point that I could do teenage things.
 I assumed I was like the other teens and could have a normal time.
In the back of my mind, I knew I wasn't like them all and I knew a party was not going to be easy for me to handle. Especially a party full of 15 and 16 year olds!

Before the party I could not decide what to wear.
I'm a small, quirky, nerdy and not exactly thin girl, with not a lot of self confidence at all.
So finding an outfit to wear that suits this particular occasion was difficult.
I tried on so many cute dresses I had, but nope, they wouldn't be right.
I tried on my friends tight fitted dresses and just looked like a lumpy mess!
So I ended up wearing a green and white polka dotted crop top with a black high waisted skirt.
Now don't get me wrong, Polka dots look cute on me; I love them! But I guess cute wasn't right for the occasion.
The crop top..I didn't exactly wear it as a crop top, I pulled the skirt up so that none of my tummy was on show and I didn't wear a lot of make up, just because It's not something that appealed to me. My hair was down, orange and black and was held back with a cute bow head band.

So there above is the night of the party, showing my outfit. Of course minus the fluffy house slippers!
But yes, my two other friends wore tight and girly clothes which appealed to the boys; I guess I must have cramped their style a bit.
Their was everyone at the party wearing tight fitted dresses with clutch purses, drinking alcohol, and then there was me, looking quirky and polka dotted, with a bow head band, a brown bohemian side bag and drinking water.
I guess I was and still am so so different to the average teenager.

Anyway, enough rambling on.
The party was..horrid.
I mean, to me it was.
To my friends it was a blast. Dancing around teenage boys with their mainstream hair and style.
Eek..I feel ill thinking about it all again!
I was just so out of my comfort zone. A dance floor full of teens dancing almost seductively, and there is me completely frozen with fear (When I say frozen, I mean I actually couldn't move I was that scared).
And this is why I don't do parties like this.
I mean a family party is not too bad, but a popular person from schools party - not so good!

One memory from this party I will never forget was when I first walked in behind my friends and everyone turned to look. They looked back after a glance apart from the table sitting closest to the door. Which had someone on it who I had been friends with previously in infant school. He wasn't nice to me since he became cool. He just looked at me, laughed and turned to say something to his friend who also laughed. So yes, nothing like feeling paranoid in an environment you hate anyway!
I was just happy when I got home and I could put back on those purple slippers of mine and forget everything that had happened by watching TV and sipping on a hot chocolate.

I just thought I would share this with you all.
I haven't attended a party like that since then, which I'm happy about.

So yes! How do you guys find parties?
It would be interesting to hear some different comments with stories of your experiences.
I'm up for reading them!

Smile :)
  L
xxx

Why should we force ourselves to do things we don't want to do?

So. First of all. Apologies for not updating my blog for a while.
I've been faced with some negativity that has drained me, Plus starting back at college.

So, this brings me onto the question I often bring up.
 'Why should we force ourselves to do things we don't want to do?'.
This question is something really important to me, therefore I decided to write about it!

The thing is, the way to be happy is to listen to yourself and follow your instincts.
If you don't want to go to a party, or you don't want to go out, then listen to what you really want and go with it. It is guaranteed the outcome will be better than if you do something you don't want to do.
For example, recently I've encountered some negativity which has caused me to feel very ill and drained; this negativity was actually caused through college and pressure.
Last Friday I decided I wasn't going to go into college as I needed to just take some time to be alone and think and take a mental breather. Now don't get me wrong, most teens don't want to go into school and some people 'cant be bothered' to go to college or work. I'm not saying it's a good thing to not go in when you feel you cant be bothered, but you should never force yourself to do something you really do not want to do. You should always try your best to get into work/ School/ College to save yourself from having to catch up or lowering attendance, however you and your health come first remember that!

Forcing yourself could cause illness, anxiety and all sorts of things. This is why it is very important to listen to yourself and your feelings.
I have felt unable to update my blog therefore I haven't forced myself to do it.
Now that I have given myself time to relax and think, I am now able to carry on normally.

So just remember. Never force yourself to do something you do not want to do.
Listen to yourself.
It's the key to feeling happy!

Smile :)
  L
xxx